As One Sun Sets, Another Rises ...

I had mentioned previously that I did not feel comfortable ruffling the feathers of the universe and in turn still felt a bit blue yet guilty for even feeling that way. Well, for not going against the cards at hand I was rewarded. This had to be the most adventurous and exciting weekend I have had in a long time. I must say thank you to all those who actively participated and interacted with me, it truly made a difference. I know I sound like some spiritual guru who is thankful for the positive social shakra or whatever you want to call it. But I'm just genuinely grateful, is that so bad. Any who, Ive learned that whenever opportunities now present themselves that I must not think twice and just seize them. And if they don't work out, its fine, there will another waiting around the corner.
In other news I feel the need to bring into retrospect relationships, dating and all that jazz, I have somethings I feel the need to get off my chest and I would like some feedback on this, maybe I'm wrong and feel free to contradict or agree but .....


1. Why do guys think that just because they take you home that they deserve something at the end of the night?
Don't get me wrong, I'm very grateful for the courtesy drive home. (Although it a pretty long drive) however we had just met and there was no sweeping off the feet what-so-ever... Really?


2.  I love when people say that they want to be your "friend" and yet they don't have the gall (for lack of a more derogatory word) to do so. I think being cordial doesn't really hurt much, now does it? To truthfully walk tall and proud (in a metaphorical sense) saying hello to everyone in a room shouldn't even be a second thought. But when one cant do that, it just shows weakness.


"Make the most of yourself, for that is all there is of you."  - Ralph Waldo Emerson


P.S. : For those who would like to know, here's a snippet of the "new" things I ventured into this weekend... 1 red headed slut (the drink oh and it was free, wahoo), golfing on the Granada Golf Course, and Food Trucks.


I would recommend trying all things listed above at least once, and don't judge a book by its cover. Golf DOES take skill, and just because it comes from a truck doesn't mean it cant be gourmet.

You Win Some, You Lose Some.

So unfortunately my day yesterday was not as exciting as I had hoped. However, I realized a few things. One, which I have known before, never set yourself up for expecations becuase they may not turn out to what they seem. Secondly, when things are not meant to be, dont push it. Lastly, and this is one that I feel the most concious about, even though your problems may seem like the end of the world theyre not. As I was out and about trying to piece together my situation, hundreds of people were trying to deal with find shelter and escaspe the madness that was literally crumbling before them and now that is drowning them. My worries, and problems are so insignificant. I know this is a topic that has literally blown up the social media scence, but this to me is concerning. Literally, im here worrying about my measley little problems when someone right next to me has found out their days are literally numbered. Someone else I know has just been bacuracted for trying to committ suicide, after the loss of her son who also comitted suicide. Now, i know what your thinking how depressing right!? ... Well join the club! Im just kidding, but this is just a glimpse of the thoughts that ran through my head last night and all this morning.

This post will be dedicated to all those who are suffering in the world, my prayers and condolensces go out to you.

"Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player
That struts and frets his hour upon the stage
And then is heard no more: it is a tale
Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury,
Signifying nothing." - Shakespere (Macbeth)

oh how we all love those technicalities ...

So like I said, its going to be 365 days of me being single in the city... well today is day 5 and I'm single and going strong! For those of you reading I need you to understand this is not going to be an easy journey for me. It has been 5 years that I have not been single for more than 3-4 months. I know, crazy right! Well I know given my age, which none of you will really know, unless once again you know me personally, this sort of thing is kind of understandable. However, given the type of person and lover I am this is not so good for me, let me say, AT ALL! Going onto day 5  I am proud of myself for my major strength to get past all the emotional anger and distress I should be feeling, however I'm letting that go. I feel pretty confident thatI'll be okay along this journey, but the only thing that frightens me is those dark sentiments that no one likes or even likes to hear. Not going to lie I'm even terrified of writing it, and that word has 5 letters. Do I dare spell it? ... Oh what the heck, here it goes: alone.

So my signature on this blog will  be insprining quotes for the day, and for time being some of them will come from the novel "Eat Pray Love" by Elizabeth Gilbert, and others, well those will just come to me.

With that said, today's quote is: "Sometimes when things fall apart, its so better things can come togther" - C.S.*

* I have used the persons initials becuase I havent decided if I really want to reveal the people in my life and their identies yet, but with due time, I'm sure I willl.